For starters, I am THRILLED to be pregnant again!! I do also realize how blessed I am that I am able to have another baby. This post is not to rave about my new pregnancy though, it's to let other people (and myself) see how I am actually feeling. Even though it has only been 15 months since I have been pregnant, it feels like it was SO long ago, and I almost forgot what it feels like. I hate to say it, (especially for other woman who have it so rough) but my first pregnancy was such. a. breeze. My "symptoms" included cramping, and exhaustion and that's basically it. This time however, I'm literally crying all the time, i'm so irritable and just do not want to be around anybody. I just do not feel like myself. Every morning I wake up feeling like I have a massive "hangover" and I can't get rid of it. I sleep terribly, I have a headache and I just feel so nauseous right when I wake up. For five months I was begging to become pregnant and now that I am, I'm like wait... why was I wanting this SO badly!? Haha. Staying positive is a MUST to get you through your day but becoming negative is also very easy to do... especially without seeing an ultrasound yet. The best advice that I have received so far is from one of my best friends Josie. I was venting to her and letting her know how I felt and was basically apologizing to her, and myself for feeling the way that I do and she asked me something along the lines of "why do you feel like it's not okay to feel the way that you're feeling right now?" That was a game changer for me. I don't know why I wasn't letting myself feel the way that my body is telling me to feel. I think it's maybe a mixture of different pressures from everything and everyone around me. The acceptance to myself of being "okay" with not "feeling okay" at the moment has made this whole experience a million times easier. I honestly cannot wait to see my little baby's heartbeat and know that these surge of hormones are for something absolutely amazing!! It's easy to forget what it's all about when you're feeling so crappy. Thank you to all of the other mama's, friends, family and even friends on social media who have supported and uplifted me during this VERY emotional time. It doesn't matter what or why anyone is going through, sometimes positive words is all that you need!!