WOW IT'S BEEN SO LONG!! I'm honestly not even shocked that I stopped blogging. I mean, I stopped doing everything that I love. I didn't work out, bake, hang out with friends or really plan much with my days. Unfortunately the first trimester of this pregnancy was nothing like my first. Hey, it happens. It’s okay to be honest with yourself.. that’s probably the best advice that I was given this time around. It’s okay to be RAW and REAL with yourself. Life isn’t perfect and there were waaay more tough times than easy times for me during those three months. I was sick every single day for what it seemed like months. I fell into a dark depression and really didn’t feel a connection to this baby. I saved all of my smiles and laughter for my toddler and partner and literally left nothing for myself.  It was extremely hard to be positive but there was a light at the end of the tunnel for me!!! Thank the heavens. Around sixteen weeks my symptoms cleared up and I woke up one day actually feeling HAPPY. I love this little baby more than life but man oh maaaaan I will definitely ask them to give me a few EXTRA kisses when they’re older.